Procrastinator

That would be me. I’ve seen a lot of talk lately on this subject. It has got me thinking, again, as to why I have this problem? I don’t like it, being a procrastinator and yet at the end of the day that is exactly what I am, but why?  Maybe it goes back to childhood for reasons there isn’t anyway I’m going to remember now, less brain cells are active at the moment. Or maybe I’m just lazy, ok, maybe I am just a little.  Maybe it’s been a way to hide or protect myself over the years, like a turtle. In my heart of hearts I don’t believe any of those things. I am a procrastinator for one simple reason… what would happen if I truly succeeded?? Now that scares the **** out of me. Then I’d have to do it, whatever it maybe, forever!!

Silly, you might think, but oh no it is not.

I’ve wanted so many things, to be so many things, to do so many things. I’ve learned you can try them all but you can’t DO them all. I’ve been known through out my life as a jack of all trades but master of none. See? Procrastinator. My fear used to be that if I pick just one I will get bored. I limited myself in every way possible by giving myself that ultimatum. Now that I’m older and wiser, *crosses fingers*, I’m sort of pissed off at myself for doing that because now I have to essentially start from scratch, kind of.

Today, right now, there isn’t a better time for me to have a new, fresh perspective on life. It’s all in the attitude. Let’s face it, I’m not getting any younger. So in the spirit of new and fresh I’m going to create a few simple goals for me, nothing to far reaching so I don’t scare myself away, just simple everyday things I can do to push myself along.

1. be thankful

2. be in the moment

3. pay attention

4. laugh

5. interact with others (I’m not very good at this one because 1. I’ve been somewhat of a loner and 2. I’ve been a people pleaser at the same time. Talk about confusing.

6. laugh, oh I already said that, but it’s a good one so I’ll keep it on here twice.

7. continue to dream.

8. ease up on myself just a little and have some fun!!

9. laugh some more :))

And remember it’s never too late.

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