Here is a moment truth. After reading some of my earlier posts I decided that I’m full of sh**. There’s too much preaching about writing and following your my dreams that I decided I sound sort of stupid. Look, to be honest, I’ve been in pissy mood for quite sometime now. There’s way too much going in my life and I’d really like it if I could go dig a great big hole for myself to hide in, or maybe I could find a nice dark damp cave and hang out with the bats for a while. Either way will work for me. Instead, I’ve written about how a writer has to be honest with the reader, a writer must put their heart and soul into the entire creative process. Blech… Yes! We must do that every single time we venture into our own creative space but that isn’t what I’ve done, I’ve been lying. I’ve pretended, and at least for today, my truth is I don’t think I know anything about anything. There, I said it.
I don’t have the first clue how to even find my creative space let alone venture into it honestly. Most days I’m looking through the window of my imagination at all the pretty little things in my creative mind but the door is locked and the key is missing. I’ve searched everywhere for that damn key. I’ve met some pretty awesome people along the way yet when I ask them if they know where my key is they look at me like I just spoke in jibberish. As people we don’t fit one particular mold so why do I think I have to? I’ve convinced myself that I must belong. Belong to what and with whom, is the question of the day. I don’t really know and that makes me laugh. A really big belly laugh. Me continually try to impress people I don’t know is the bane of my existence.
Some people say everything happens for a reason and exactly when it’s suppose to happen. I’d like to hit those people over the head. No. Not really. Things do happen for a reason I’m just not sure what the reasons are yet but recently there is a topic popping up in many of the blogs I read that piques my interest. Many say that creating a manifesto is one of the most important things we can do in our lives. It’s the new buzzword. A manifesto is a declaration of personal principles and intentions for our own lives. A list of what matters most to us and the rules we intend to live by. Could it really be that simple? A manifesto to put myself back on track? To give me some direction?
Maybe I don’t know what I really stand for or what is really important to me. (I know…cue the choir music.) I don’t know if writing a manifesto will be the key either but it’s worth a shot. And if that doesn’t work I’ll have a shot. A great big shot of tequila without the salt and lime. Seriously, this is what I like about the word manifesto. It is a declaration, it is an intent. Those are some pretty powerful words. When some people make a declaration it is as good as a signed contract, as good as gold, or as good as a spit handshake. For procrastinators and people with ADD, like me, this is a problem.
My homework assignment for myself the rest of this week is to come up with my manifesto. Yay! Only letting the most important principles and intents make the list. I’m going to focus on who I am and where I want to go. I’m going to search for that beautiful diamond encrusted key that will open that cute little shop I’ve been window shopping at and I’m going to stop being afraid.
Do you know where your key is? Do it with me. Write your own manifesto. Come back here and share it.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
Yesterday was May Day, a symbolic day when we awaken from our winter slumber to the beauty of spring and all the beauty and possibilities waiting for us. It reminds us of the slumbering passions within ourselves and motivates us to go after them. My passion has always been words and writing. What is it about writing that attracts me so much? Well, I’ve tried to figure that out for most of my life but it seems that I enjoy the act of putting pen to paper or the typing them into the computer to create something unique, possibly profound. You could say that I’m obsessed with the idea of writing but over and over I struggle with the act of writing. Why? Because I never allow myself to truly have a voice. I mean, I give my ideas and opinions all the time, even when they aren’t even asked for, but I’m not sure that’s the same as having a voice, one that can speak from a place of knowing that no matter what, I know who I am and I know what I believe in. I believe that when you write from that place, that truth inside yourself, you allow your reader to connect with you on a completely different level.
A friend of mine said to me not too long ago that I had to “own” my writing. At first I thought she was crazy. What could she possibly mean by that? Of course I own my writing or I wouldn’t have written it or shown it to her, but what I think what she was really saying is that I need let go, to get out of my way and let my heart out on the page, one hundred and fifty percent. A writer must be honest with the reader, being accountable for every word. I have to give myself over to my words and let them have the energy they so crave and I have to stop apologizing for the words I write. Without doing that the reader will know I’m a fraud or a fake and an untalented one to boot. Another lesson I have yet to overcome is the one where I stop saying “I’m trying to do this…” or “I’m trying to do that…” but instead, to coin a phrase, to just do it. Period. End of story. Obviously, simply putting words on paper doesn’t mean it’s any good but so what? There’s always re-writes. That’s also what she meant. I have to learn how to write without letting fear and worry get in the way. I need to have fun writing. What a concept. Yikes!
Ok. So writing was my dream. Today it is my reality. From listening to advice from some very talented writer people, to reading authors who are known for good writing and spending time in the writing process I will discover my voice, my sense of self and the where and when of how my voice belongs out in this great big world we live in. As I keep saying during the process of my writing journey, words have power, an energy that could go well beyond what I write and maybe, just maybe, my words could give someone the tools they need to get started on their own path of self discovery.
Thanks for letting me share with you. I hope your day is full of passion!
This is almost the end of the first week in Adventures in Manifesting and I’d thought I’d give you a little update. Things are going very well with this group. Better than I would have imagined. I’ve kept up with the daily checklist and staying in touch with the people in the group. Even though we’re still getting to know each other, everyone is very nice and extremely supportive, helping each other to keep motivated.
Over the years I’ve tried many self-help techniques but none of them really kept me motivated for very long. I think it’s because the earlier techniques were attempted on my own. With this group we’re doing it together. There’s a certain level of trust being generated through this group, one that tells all of us involved that we aren’t alone in dealing with the obstacles that pop up in the face of new challenges and adventures. It’s part of the process to learn how to say,” Fine, it’s an obstacle. I can either let it stop me or I can go through it… I choose to go through it.” It’s about being honest with ourselves. It’s about learning how to have fun in our everyday lives and to live them with the utmost passion. If we can’t learn how to do that we might forever be stuck.
We’ve all made commitments to FINISH the course. It is a way to honor ourselves. To honor our own dreams and desires. I’m so glad AIM came to me when it did. It’s just the needed push for me to move forward out of the tar pit of my fear.
If you haven’t already looked into the Adventures in Manifesting e-course, take a look. It couldn’t hurt. It might be just the push you need.
With gratitude and love,
I’ve recently joined Adventures in Manifesting, an e-course taught by Sarah Prout and Sean Patrick Simpson. They are a fun and loving couple who share their knowledge through laughter and really incredible information. The goal of AIM is to give people the tools to manifest their own dreams and desires. I’m over the moon about the opportunity to get some simple yet effective tools that are essentially going to help me to put one foot in front of the other and head into the future I’ve always imagined for myself but didn’t necessarily know how to get to. From the start of this course I’ve noticed something different about the other students, it’s the spirit of the AIM community, the connectedness to people who are supportive, friendly and inspiring.
If you are interested in this e-course you can choose to pay for the course, a fee of $97.00 or you can sign up for free. Yes, free. But you have to be willing to share this opportunity with others. I can honestly say that is a small price to pay to be involved with people who are so positive and committed to embrace the gifts I think we already have within ourselves.
I recently lost my Mother who, at 90, lived a long and fruitful life. One of the many gifts she gave to our family over the last few days we had her was her passion for living. She told us to go out and “live” our lives, to laugh as much as possible, to love with all our hearts, and that if we believe we can we will. She talked about all the wonderful adventures of her life and it left me feeling inspired and somewhat disheartened. I’m not sure I’ve ever lived my life with such verve. From the moment I had that realization I decided that, yes, life is too short to waste with negativity and self-doubt. They are a complete waste of my time. My Mother said she never thought about things so much as she just did them and it was beautiful. That’s what I want for my life, for my husband, for my children. I’m eternally grateful for her many words of wisdom and her love.
I want to share this e-course with you. Check it out. Decide for yourself. Some say things come to you when you need them the most. I think this course came at the perfect time for me. I’m fully inspired and committed to truly living my life. Are you?
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you have imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler. ~ Henry David Thoreau
With much gratitude and love,
No more messing around.